General Surgeon appt

I went to a gen surgeon - not for a biopsy - but for a 2nd opinion. I was led to believe that I was going for a biopsy but that wasn't the case. However, he did say that he wanted to do one - that will be on Nov 14.

He told me if he was a betting man that he'd say it was benign and something commonly found in lactating women and not to lose any sleep over it. He also said that he wants to see what it is before he goes in to remove anything and that just doing the biopsy will remove most of it since it's so small.

That's it in a nutshell.

Jack is walking!!

10 1/2 mos old and Jack is walking!! It's amazing. I know I'm in for a world of trouble now but he already gets into everything crawling and this way, at least he keeps his hands and pants clean. :) He's been letting go and taking a step here and a few steps there but when I was at the dr today, my mom said that he kept taking 4-5 steps and then today he kept doing it as well only walking further and further.

I can't believe he's walking!!

Breast sono - update

I had my sono today.

What they found was NOT a cyst but a solid mass. They will now do a biopsy on the 30th instead of aspirating it...What I don't understand is why will they do a biospy instead of just doing a lumpectomy and removing it and THEN biopsying it? Because aren't they just going to remove it anyhow?

Anyhow. I'm trying to remain calm but all the what if's and unknown are invading my thoughts. It's all overwhelming to think about.

Worst mother ever! :(

Today my sister, mom and myself were looking at pics on my sisters computer for her to upload to Babygap when we heard a thud. My sister jumped up, my mom jumped up and they both ran upstairs thinking my nephew crawled up to the top bunk and fell off (he's three). My BIL came from the kitchen and said that Kyle fell from the top bunk when they got up there he was still sleeping and my niece was still in her crib.

That's when the crying started and I realized it was JACK!!!!!!!!!!!!

He fell down the steps.

A WHOLE freakin' flight of like 10 but he's ok. I freaked out! I ran to him and I don't know how many steps I even hit on my way to him. My sister said that my lips were white. He doesn't even have a scratch but man! what a wake up call. I feel terrible. I've never had such accidents happen - EVER. I'm such a terrible mother.


ETA: That Jack was there with us one minute and down the steps the next and my sister has a gate on the steps but my mom opened when she came back in with the mail b/c all the kids were sleeping, shortly after, Jack woke up and we never thought to close the gate. I mean he was in the room with 3 adults not that it mattered, had I realized the gate was open, I would've close it.

I had an appt today.

Today I went and saw my gyn regarding the lump in my breast. He told me to schedule a sonogram (so now I will get a sono of my breast and abdomen at the same time, thank God I waited to make the abdomen appt - the abdomen appt is b/c my bloodwork came back in Sept with elevated bilirubin and this is not the first time so my dr wanted to see what my liver looked like) and to make an appt with a general surgeon.

While all of this is scary, I really have no gut feeling telling me to worry. So I'll just wait and see what happens. My dr did tell me that it could be something from breast feeding b/c they see that a lot. Who knows...

Austin is 11!

Today my baby is 11. Eleven. Where'd the time go? I can't believe that I raised such a good kid. Austin is incredible. He's so helpful to me and so caring and loving. I think it's in his genes b/c as much as I'd like to take the credit, I hardly doubt that it was my parenting. lol

Happy Birthday Austin! I love you... more!

Austin's birthday party.

Austin had his birthday party yesterday. He won't be 11 until the 17th but he's at his dad's that weekend so we had the party last night. Austin was so excited for this party. It was a sleep over but not just any sleep over, this one was special. First we invited all the family and a few of his closest friends and we ordered pizza, had a bon fire (where they later cooked hot dogs and marshmallows) and then they got to spend the night in the RV. I've got to say that all the kids at the party had a really good time. The younger kids chased each other round and round the yard, they must've slept well. It was loud and while I was going a little nuts making sure Jack didn't wake up from the party noise, we all had a good time.

Overall, I think it will be a birthday that he will always remember.

Found a lump.

I found a lump in my right breast today. I'm not sure what to make of it right now but I guess I'll be calling a dr on Monday. I'll keep you posted.