Jackie's baby shower

Well first let me say that we got here ok. Jack cried in the car for about an hour at the half way point, probably because he didn't want to keep sitting confined in that car seat any longer but alas, he fell asleep for the rest of the way.

Today was Jackie's, my brother's girlfriend, baby shower. I don't know if I mentioned it before but she's having twins, twin boys but they are fraternal so they won't look alike. It was a great shower. I was there with my mom, my sister, her daughter Ainsley and Jack. Ainsley was a busy body, she was everywhere. Jack was good and in the end, ended up falling asleep in my arms.

The food was great and she got a TON of stuff! We got her a crib and crib mattress and I got her a ton of other things including bags of handed down clothes. She should be set for now.

I need to run, my mom is watching Jack and I need to feed him.

Going to PA

I'm leaving to go to Pennsylvania today, in just a couple hours at that so I don't have too much time to blog. I'm nervous about driving with the baby, I'm nervous about him crying. I still have a ton to do. I need to pack for myself and any last minute things I might remember. It should be a good visit home. I'll get to see my mom and dad and a bunch of people that I haven't seen in a while. I'll post more later.

Sofia Rose

That's the name of my newest niece born July 5th.

She was born yesterday morning at 8:23am and has a head full of dark hair. She weighed in at 7lbs 9ozs and was 19" long.Bill and I will go see them tonight and I can't wait to see the wee one.

So cool to be an Aunt again!

Realization

I realized while I was in the shower that my short marriage to Bill, 1yr and 5mos, has already been longer than my marriage to ex. It's sad but it's true. Ex came to me after 1yr and 3mos and told me that he was content but not happy. I asked him to explain that to me because I thought that content was a state of happy and he told me that when someone is [only] content that's why they cheat. Boy, I didn't even see that huge red flag. I knew something happened that weekend while I was gone but I couldn't get him to admit to anything until years later when he had nothing left to lose by telling the truth. Scum. I loved him whole heartedly which I why I always said that he would never find a woman better than me, not because there aren't good women out there but because NO ONE would love him like I did. All of this is water under the bridge. I'm happy now with my new life. It just wanted to put my realization out there.

I should know better.

I jumped the gun a bit in my "ovulation" post. I should know better than to assume ovulation based on one temperature. As you guessed, I did not ovulate, the temperature must've been a fluke. So, that's it for that. I didn't miss a thing.

This morning I went to get Austin and when no one showed up, I started calling. Here I thought that his dad was getting Austin for a week after we went to PA but it was the week before - this week. Man. I woke up Jack and everything. I could've slept in. Oh well.

Ovulation

So I'm breastfeeding. Jack is 6mos old and I still have not had my cycle return. This is a good thing and a bad thing all at the same time. I mean, I don't think I need to explain to you why I think it's a good thing, especially if you're a woman but it's a bad thing because I was hoping to be able to start ttc #3. I want my last 2 children to be close in age and the closer the better. I have my reasons.

One being I worry about getting pregnant at my age because in the ttc world I already have one foot in the grave. This never really would've bothered me until I had my pregnancy with Jack and they kind of freaked me out putting me through rounds of testing. Yikes!

Two, although I love being pregnant, I want to get this out of the way.

And three, I want the two to be close. Friends close. Not that they can't be "friend" close further apart but they will be more on the same page closer together.

Anyhow, I've been watching my cycle very carelessly. We haven't had protected sex once since Jack has been born because I don't care if I get pregnant. I've taken my temperature (my choice of birth control) a handful of times just to note whether or not I ovulated. In the past I could always feel when I ovulated so I figured I would probably feel it again. So, I think it was Saturday the I last took my temperature, although I'm not 100%, it could've been Friday, whatever, it was 97.2 which tells me that I had not ovulated. This morning I get up and I think to take my temperature and it's 97.9 indicating ovulation. I did not feel ovulation this time and I'm bummed (not terribly bummed being as how Jack is only 6mos old) to think I may have missed my first month ttc because I wasn't more on top of things. Thing is though, I don't know when I ovulated. My best guess would be either yesterday or Monday. The only time we had sex was last night so I'm hoping I ovulated yesterday. I guess I'll know in about 2wks.

Bottom line here: God knows what I can handle.

A weird phone call

You'll never guess who called me yesterday. My ex mother-in-law. It's funny how she called me right after her family had a get-together. She said that she found out my new last name from last year's Christmas card and she called information to get my number. Now, maybe this is true but I have a feeling that ex gave her my number when he saw her on Sunday. I'm sure she asked and he handed it right over but she wouldn't tell me that.

It was an odd conversation. I mean, I always did get along with ex's parents and I even said to Bill one day that it was shame that I didn't / couldn't keep in touch with them but there were long pauses where she didn't know what to say so I had to keep filling in the blanks. She called me and I had to keep coming up with the topic of conversations. Mainly b/c so much time has passed so there's not a ton we can talk about plus the fact that she's my ex-husband's mother but it was nice to hear from her. I will admit though, I was a bit relieved my dad called on the other line and it was time to end the conversation.

I have a feeling that that won't be the last time that I hear from her since she was the one who went of her way to get my phone number and made the first call in probably 3yrs. We'll see.